Just wanted to share with the world that I'm officially a giddy school-girl again. Every time I think about... (for privacy-sake I'll just call him The Harpist) - anytime I think about the Harpist, I smile and get all giggly inside. It's a warm wonderful feeling that I've not had in a long time.
Am I too quick to feel like this over someone? I would normally have said, yes. Yes, it's way too soon because I don't know him well yet. I've always admired from afar those people who say sparks flew the instant they met and all that other mushy nonsense...and I also shook my head and thought how ridiculous it really was because in real life, that just doesn't happen.
But now I have to wonder if there's not some reality to it all. I suppose people can feel excited about another person right away. Perhaps I've always thought it wasn't real because I'd never experienced it for myself. And because I've never experienced it for myself, I also ponder that maybe I'm getting ahead of myself. I don't know what's ruling my emotions...head, heart, chemicals? Am I over-thinking EVERYTHING like I always do? Probably.
I've only dated the Harpist a few times so far. But they were amazing dates. The best first date I've EVER had. No weird awkward moments; no silent staring; no weird conversations involving too much information. It was all wonderful. And I've never kissed on a first date before either. That was a lovely first experience.
Naturally, little things are starting to surface...like what's moving too fast and what's not. Is it all in my head - this instant attraction? And I really don't want to think about these things. I'm trying really hard to just stop thinking and go with the flow for once. I know things will move along just fine and fretting about it all will only spoil my excitement.
As of right now, I am loving this feeling I have and I want to relish it for a good, long time. So if you see me smiling and giggling to myself, you'll know it's because I'm thinking of the Harpist.
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Sunday, January 23, 2011
I'm Back Again (For Now)
Hello Internet. How have you been? Sorry I haven't talked to you in a long time. I've been busy. Did you have a good holiday? As you probably already figured out, I come and go from this blog thing. I take many long breaks between writing. Either nothing interesting has happened or I've got the writer's block again. Lately, it's been both. But I do have news.
So what's happened since the last time I blogged?
The job I got at Basin Healthcare as the early-ass morning receptionist is no more. I was promoted to Administrative Assistant to the CEO. This means I'm now going to work from 8am to 5pm. No more 4:30am wake-up alarms. Yay. (And the pay-raise is splendid.)
I'm going to Austin for spring break. I felt the need to get out of town and decided on Austin. Why go to Austin again? Well mostly it is because I'm determined to take a proper trip there. The last handful of times I've been were whirlwind 2 day trips. I'm tired of all of that driving just to spend 2 days there. This time it's going to be 3, not counting driving time. At least, that's my plan. Drive in really early one day and have the rest of that afternoon and evening; have the next two days for whatever I feel like; the fourth day will be a half-day because I will need to drive home in the afternoon. I really hope it goes as planned. People close to me know how OCD I get when it comes to plans.
I just can't help it. I try to apologize to people in advance. But once I get a schedule in my head, I am compelled to follow it. If there's a speed-bump, a detour, or any other sidetrack in the plan, I get very antsy. I can't help it. I feel like things aren't going according to plan and I'm missing out on something, and that means things aren't right. And they need to be right. See? OCD.
The ex and I are in the friend zone now - where it should be. There's no real awkwardness when we hang out with our friends. We even get lunch together sometimes just to stay in touch. So it's all good. I don't have to put up with his hi-jinks anymore and when he tries to pressure me into drinking or something, I firmly say no and shut the door on that conversation instead of letting him keep trying like I used to do. It feels good not to deal with it anymore.
There's a few other things too that I could mention, but I'm saving those for posts later.
So what's happened since the last time I blogged?
The job I got at Basin Healthcare as the early-ass morning receptionist is no more. I was promoted to Administrative Assistant to the CEO. This means I'm now going to work from 8am to 5pm. No more 4:30am wake-up alarms. Yay. (And the pay-raise is splendid.)
I'm going to Austin for spring break. I felt the need to get out of town and decided on Austin. Why go to Austin again? Well mostly it is because I'm determined to take a proper trip there. The last handful of times I've been were whirlwind 2 day trips. I'm tired of all of that driving just to spend 2 days there. This time it's going to be 3, not counting driving time. At least, that's my plan. Drive in really early one day and have the rest of that afternoon and evening; have the next two days for whatever I feel like; the fourth day will be a half-day because I will need to drive home in the afternoon. I really hope it goes as planned. People close to me know how OCD I get when it comes to plans.
I just can't help it. I try to apologize to people in advance. But once I get a schedule in my head, I am compelled to follow it. If there's a speed-bump, a detour, or any other sidetrack in the plan, I get very antsy. I can't help it. I feel like things aren't going according to plan and I'm missing out on something, and that means things aren't right. And they need to be right. See? OCD.
The ex and I are in the friend zone now - where it should be. There's no real awkwardness when we hang out with our friends. We even get lunch together sometimes just to stay in touch. So it's all good. I don't have to put up with his hi-jinks anymore and when he tries to pressure me into drinking or something, I firmly say no and shut the door on that conversation instead of letting him keep trying like I used to do. It feels good not to deal with it anymore.
There's a few other things too that I could mention, but I'm saving those for posts later.
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