Just wanted to share with the world that I'm officially a giddy school-girl again. Every time I think about... (for privacy-sake I'll just call him The Harpist) - anytime I think about the Harpist, I smile and get all giggly inside. It's a warm wonderful feeling that I've not had in a long time.
Am I too quick to feel like this over someone? I would normally have said, yes. Yes, it's way too soon because I don't know him well yet. I've always admired from afar those people who say sparks flew the instant they met and all that other mushy nonsense...and I also shook my head and thought how ridiculous it really was because in real life, that just doesn't happen.
But now I have to wonder if there's not some reality to it all. I suppose people can feel excited about another person right away. Perhaps I've always thought it wasn't real because I'd never experienced it for myself. And because I've never experienced it for myself, I also ponder that maybe I'm getting ahead of myself. I don't know what's ruling my emotions...head, heart, chemicals? Am I over-thinking EVERYTHING like I always do? Probably.
I've only dated the Harpist a few times so far. But they were amazing dates. The best first date I've EVER had. No weird awkward moments; no silent staring; no weird conversations involving too much information. It was all wonderful. And I've never kissed on a first date before either. That was a lovely first experience.
Naturally, little things are starting to surface...like what's moving too fast and what's not. Is it all in my head - this instant attraction? And I really don't want to think about these things. I'm trying really hard to just stop thinking and go with the flow for once. I know things will move along just fine and fretting about it all will only spoil my excitement.
As of right now, I am loving this feeling I have and I want to relish it for a good, long time. So if you see me smiling and giggling to myself, you'll know it's because I'm thinking of the Harpist.
